wah crap. damn long nv update. but. well. i suppose now it's time.

couldn't find any other avenue for me to express what i feel. not facebook. not anyone on msn. not on the phone. not face to face.

hung out with di/wayne/ting today. and yh/wj/++ yesterday. bad bad combination. bad bad wkend. i mean. the wkend wasn't BAAD. it was quite fun really. but. well. hanging out with couples kinda makes me miss him. a lot. and when i miss him i talk abt him. which makes me miss him even more. i don't think they did anything wrong by like. being all couply and stuff. i mean. they're couples! but. just :(. and maybe it is kinda selfish of me. but sometimes i wonder if they've forgotten how hard it is to do LDR. and if they know that i'm still going thru it. i don't shout it out to the whole world. i don't act all upset in front of them. (although i really almost died in church today.) but. well. it's the selfish 'how about me?'

1 more mth. i just have to tahan 1 more mth. i dun even know if i can make it till tmr.