think i've nv been as stressed. yea i say that everytime. but still. STRESSEDDDDD. like mega mega.

i think it's the first time i'm stressed till like i feel this constant pressure on my chest and i feel like i can't breathe? and my head is so full and yet ppl are still stuffing knowledge in. it sounds quite funny now. but actually it really isn't. like i dunno so many things. i know things but freak out in front of tutors which then makes them scold me for not knowing which then freaks me out somemore. so. vicious cycle huh. and this has happened 2 days in a row ok. like. REALLY.

and grandma is. sigh grandma la.

and i want to give up being a doctor. like seriously la. get me out of here. it's killing me.

BUTTTTT. i shall claim the promises that since God put me here.. He'd get me thru this. like please. if not i will drown/suffocate/rta/choke/trauma.

ok. need to study to calm self down. and weather being so nice to sleep is NOT HELPING.