just received word that the mission trip dates will be changed to 3-9june. which means i can't go cuz we planned our holiday around the dates of 12-19 but my mum can't shift her leave dates. so it means i'll stay in london with keith longer. :)

but then i just watched the video of the team that came back from india. and it really brought me to tears. and it also kinda made me realize that i am actually quite upset that i can't go for the mission trip. i planned it so well. and i've been planning it for ages. and i've promised them that i'd come back. and they are the reason i'm in this medicine thing. (ok fine besides God.) and now God denies me this. i know He must have other plans for me. and His plans are greater than i can fathom. but as of now. this plan sucks. i'm not saying that i don't wanna spend more time with keith. don't get me wrong. but my heart is really there with them. and i want that.

i guess we'll just have to see what better more awesome things God throws at me..