ARGHHHHHH!

(i think i've blogged about this before.) hate being a medical student at times like these. getting feedback from people about the medical field about how sucky it is. how long they have to wait. how their doctor sucked. how they screwed up. and it sucks even more when it comes from your own family.

my grandma fell. had bone pain in her wrist. it was a recommendation by some doctor in *gh to see some bone specialist who apparently took SEVEN xrays and still not diagnosing anything. went to see chinese sinseh. who then suggested that she take another xray by someone. and the chinese sinseh diagnosed a line fracture. that's right. the chinese sinseh diagnosed a line fracture that the *gh bone specialist missed. and now my grandma has apparently 4 sticks holding her wrist stable. (this whole history is from my dad.)

(instant) reaction #1: defensive. so. am i supposed to look for the doctor?
reaction #2: hate tcm. HAHA. i see that i've been brainwashed by western med. ok lah. they do some good sometimes.
reaction #3: shit i better be a better doctor than that.
reaction #4: there are really tons of older generation folk who 'look up to' doctors and listen to every word we say. so. better watch wat u say.

argh. pissed off. and please. for the last time. dun tell me about how long you have to wait at various clinics and places. please. i can tell u that they are really working as fast as they can. and they have tons of patients around. really. or at least from what i see. maybe your (and yours and yours and yours) doctor is different. yea he sucks. and yea the nurses there also are slow and they take their time. maybe i see very little of what is real. i dunno.

so then do i stand by my profession or do i stand by my family. it's quite a no brainer cuz i'm supposed to stand by my family. i know. blood thicker than water. yes i know. but i just. don't like these stories which seem to all have this 'how come it's like that? can't u do anything about it? can u feedback to someone? u better not grow up to be like that. ur clinic next time don't make people wait so long ah' thing.

argh. venting.