this feeling never gets old does it. even if it's for the 7th time. it still pains my heart that you're not here. yea it got better and of course i feel like this less each time. but. well. sometimes. it is just a little too much to handle. and it doesn't matter if it's night or day. if i'm with company or not. thank goodness i came home early from the bbq today. i dunno how long more i could take it. i remember wanting to walk to the swimming pool just to sit by myself. but i stopped myself. seeing how i was at a social event. hahaha.

great. now i'll be all poofy eyed tmr.