ARGHHHHH.

i was supposed to be in this awesome awesome mood cuz my flight for paris/london was confirmed and everything. and like i get to sit the airbus a380 back home. which will be. damnnnn shiok. and now all my excitement is like gone out the window. thx to that stupiiddddddd idiot. i hate him i tell u.

and who is this fantastic idiot? the freaking CARDIO GUY. i really really hate him la. like. i really took the time to go read up my cardio OK. and like in the end he still asks me a billion zillion things that i dunno. and that's fine. but don't say things like. 'u're a medical student. u're supposed to know everything.' maybe i'm really this stupid medical student. and maybe i'm just whining. (ok fine. i AM just whining.) but like. i really feel so uninspired. he makes me feel like no matter how much i read up. it's no use. cuz he'll just put me down anyway. and like. i was really interested in cardio ok. and now it's like. i really really hate reading abt afib. and mr and ms and ar and as. and SUDDENLY he starts asking abt tr. like WTH WTH WTH??!?! and u can come and tell me the previous tutorial that like tricuspid things are damnnnn rare. then why u ask me. TSKKKK.

and now then i start realizing that there's really. so much that i dunno. and so much that i'll never know. it's why people specialize isn't it. cuz there really is too much to know.

AND AND ANDDDD. the stupid evil person keeps talking abt mbbs and the one u take after mbbs. and like. he's really really asking us all the insane stuff. and he keeps saying like. oh u'll be asked all this during mbbs one leh. then like we all like. sian. again. and it's so sad. cuz during the first tutorial we were all freaking out and everything. and this tutorial. we just. yea. ok. i dunno this. and i'm supposed to know this. again. sighhhhhh. i hate being uninspired to learn. and he just rattles off a billion signs and syndromes and everything. then he's like. ok. wat's this this this this. then obviously we haven't heard of anything. and he says. ehhhh you all supposed to know one ok. u all are medical students. u all are supposed to be like the libraries of information. like seriouslyyyyyyy!

and we're supposed to have only 2 tutorials. but he's going to give us one more. which well. is yay. but like at the same time. tsk. i hope it goes well. and i shall do my best to prepare it to like. seriously answer his qns. ARGHHHHHH. stupid idiot.

ok. i'm finally done whining.