today is like. major major major emo day.

went for playhouse. which doesn't really hit you till later on. later on being now. how many times have i chosen to ignore what i see. to go with what everyone says or thinks. to take the easy road. i've created my own bubble that i live in. to numb myself to things happening around. they are no different from us. their sin is just as bad as ours. a sin is a sin. there's no big or small. let the person who has not sinned cast the first stone. who are we to cast stones. who am i to cast stones. look at them. what differences do you see. we're all human beings. deserving to be treated as equals. we are one. why do we despise them for taking up the jobs that we deem too good for us to do. why do we despise them for doing things that we can't live without. why do we despise. everyone has a story to tell. everyone has dreams. are their dreams any less important than ours? are their lives any less meaningful than ours?

then walked home alone. which usually is ok. but i guess i haven't really travelled alone in a long while. and i really missed him today. i mean yea i miss him everyday. but today more than any. what's the point of having a slack posting and holidays if i don't have him to celebrate them with. i mean, sure. playing bridge in school and laughing around with my friends is fun too. but. there's always a part of me missing. mahjong's different without him. movies are different without him. busrides are. far far from the same.

to see your nick pop up on msn just when i needed you. release the floodgates man. haven't done that in sooo long. i need a coffee. i need a hug. i need to talk. i need you.

it's really good to hear your voice saying my name
it sounds so sweet
coming from the lips of an angel
hearing those words it makes me weak

sometimes i wish it was you...