ARGH. i dunno why u know. it's like they totally dun even have any intention of wanting to salvage this. is this their way of loving each other?! ARGHHHH. like. seriously. would u want him to do that to you? no you wouldn't. and wat kind of lousy excuse is 'his door is closed. i dun like knocking on ppl's door unless i really have to.' seriously. the irritated part of me says: if they dun wanna work for it. then i shouldn't work for it. but the (hopefully) mature part of me says: keep holding on girl. ARGH. this is all so stupid.

and sometimes. i just need ppl to stop. like. i want this whole thing to end. and like. the stupid&tired part of me says: i dun really care or give a shit abt which group i'm in. and the normal part of me says: sigh. keep holding on girl.

i can't keep holding on. if you guys are all stressing me out and pulling me down. now everything feels like emotional blackmail. blardy.