sigh. why life like that.

in everything we do. there are always consequences. one bad thing leads to another. shit hits the fan. no matter how small the shit is. it never fails to hit the fan. it's like playing i'm the boss really. messing up someone's game means they'll get back at u. karma. retribution. whatever.

i dun wanna say much here. but somehow. i do regret not saying those things. and then again. that is me. i've always been the one to suck it up. and i'm not going to apologise for that. to me it is my way. but maybe my way is wrong. i dunno. it really is just unlucky that u're that person. who is like that. ARGH. it's my fault ok? just take it as that.

and i'm sorry for making u feel jealous. but rest assured that i only love u k? i really really do. i'm sorry that the thought crossed my mind. i really was only trying to help. sorry i did it in the wrong way. and i love u. trust me? please? the thought of losing u just breaks me. a lot. love u.