tskkk. damnnn pekcek can.

why like that leh. i studied. i really did. more for that paper in fact. was it not enough? once again. it's never enough is it. this is like. secondary school all over again. maybe i wasn't cut out for this. i mean. argh. i should stop harping abt alvl grades. they're like. so passe. but it is a fact. but they dun define you. tsk. ARGH. just really frustrated la.

and just before they came in i prayed that i'd be thankful for whatever grades i got. and i guess. to a certain extent i am. You give and take away. my heart will choose to say. blessed be Your name. sigh.

grades do not define me. NO they do not. crap. this is all just sour grapes talk isn't it. shit la. i dun believe myself to be as weak as to be broken by something as this. but. i really studied my heart out. maybe i am a lot weaker than i thought.

now. where do i find the courage and strength to study for the next paper. and it's not really helping that i wun be in cmc this weekend. surrounded by the ppl i need. surrounded by God's grace. well. it's not like God's grace is only in that place.

sigh. why like that. still. thank God it's only a CA. sighhhhh.

and these are the times when just hearing you is not enough.