it begins. again. i told myself this wouldn't happen. wat's the use of telling ur brain when ur heart just simply feels the things it wants to feel. wat's the use? yes i know i should be thankful. and hopeful. but being hopeful only means i'm putting myself out there to be hurt. giving myself the chance to fall. i dunno if i can take that fall. i don't want to. i'm not complaining. neither am i regretting any of this. but i guess the hurt will nv fade. not for now at least. thank God for friends around though. really. i'm sorry in advance for taking it out on u guys. i know i can be really difficult. but. u guys are really angels. u know who u are. the ppl i run to when my world starts to fall.

young girl, don't cry..i'll be right here when your world starts to fall...
young girl, it's alright..your tears will dry you'll soon be free to fly...

this post ended in a way i didn't expect it to end. nonetheless. it's time for me to be strong.