go on. why don't you. seriously. you guys don't even give a shit. so no way am i here to force you. neither can i. neither will i. of course. yes there's no pressure to commit or to come. if you need to study, go ahead. if you're going out with outside friends who you haven't seen in a long time, yea i'm not all up for it, but sometimes it's hard to reschedule. i understand. but come on. going out with ppl you meet up with everyweek? and you and you and you have known and knew for a really long time that that time of the week is wayyyy out of the question cuz we have a commitment. but just forget abt all of that. and just ask us to reschedule something that has been there for years.

i can't say that i'm not hurt. i can't say that i'm not discouraged. i can't just give up and walk away cuz she won't be able to handle it. but at least she is giving me encouragement. from someone i never thought possible. but if one person comes, that person is more than enough reason. i hope you guys aren't lost in my thoughts. cuz i know i'm not.

i still can't believe you guys did this. i always thought that maybe you guys were tired. or busy. or had commitments. now. i don't even know wat to think. that. depends on you. sigh. it should have never come to this.

our lives are made in these small hours..