how do i become street smart without being on the street? reading the papers to know how to react when things go wrong? imagine myself going thru the situation and thinking thru wat to do if this this this should happen?

so. if i was more street smart u'd let go of me. maybe being a doctor would make me more ready to react in split second time. i dun even know what i should do. so if i read the papers more u'd let me go? so then if there aren't any girls i shouldn't go? so then i should always be back by cinderella hours? sigh.

things i don't understand but i still obey. it's called honouring your parents isn't it. and i thought. if he always has to go out of the way to send me back to fit into my curfew...should i might as well not go? i know it's a really irritating way to think. but it's true isn't it?

gah. hate being a girl. hate being at the losing end when rapes happen. hate the fact that i have breasts for ppl to molest. RAWR. i am so ranting now. pms-ing almost. or i think already.

i need to get married to get out of this system. once i'm married i think the rules are set by me. i THINK.

anyone up for overday mahjong. and overday bridge. cuz i can't make it for the overnight ones.