it's been a long time since i've prayed. even longer since i've done qt. and today. apologising and praying and doing qt again..somehow isn't making me feel as guilty as i hoped. why? have i lost the desire to run after God? has God lost the desire to wait for me? i dunno. but it just makes me feel so unreal now. to pray.

this brings back memories of the prayer i prayed for LT during fusion. somehow it just came to mind. to stop pushing everything away. to stop pushing Him away. it's time to heed my own advice huh.