ugh. hate moodswings. hate thinking moods too. think think think. in the end also nothing productive comes out. you end up just messing with ur own head. i wonder. i think pessimistically when i'm in a thinking mood. and by time i wake up in the morning, these thoughts just vanish from my head. but when the next thinking mood comes, these thoughts come back. does it mean that those are my real thoughts? my inner most thoughts? or are they just fleeting thoughts that come and go? *shrug*

this is so giving me a headache.