yay! i'm finally back. i just realized how long i've not blogged. i think a lot has happened since then. ups and downs (and centers). hahaha. school has been a mess. all my tutorials are in disarray. teo has finished nervous system. and i still dunno what it's talking about. like cuz she doesn't let me do anything and gives me all the answers! well i'm finally learning some stuff by doing my mcq. hahaha. what crap.

He said I was in my early 40's with a lot of life before me
And a moment came that stopped me on a dime
I spent most of the next days, looking at the X-rays
And talking 'bout the options, and talking 'bout sweet time
I asked him when it sank in that this might really be the real end
How's it hit cha when you get the kind of news
Man, what'd ya do ?

I went skydiving, I went rocky mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin'

He said I was finally the husband that most of the time I wasn't
And I became a friend a friend would like to have
And all of a sudden goin' fishin wasn't such an imposition
And I went 3 times that year I lost my dad
Well I, I finally read the good book
And I took a good long hard look
At what I'd do if I could do it all again

And then... I went skydiving, I went rocky mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin'

Like tomorrow was a gift
And you got eternity to think about what you do with it
What should you do with it
What can I do with it
What would I do with it

I went skydiving, I went rocky mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin'

makes u think doesn't it. you only treasure things either when you lose them. or when you are about to lose them. and then you rush to do things that you procrastinated for the longest time ever. it sounds really really cliche. but it's true isn't it. to tell that special someone what he means to you. to be ever loving. ever forgiving. to finally forgive my dad. and the guy from 18july.

wat would you do with the time you had..if you only had a year more? or maybe a month. perhaps a day? i dont think the song means for us to give up school and education (although i'd love to) but to. well. love deeper and speak sweeter. and forgive every person you were meant to forgive. and also to ask for forgiveness from all the people who you hurt. it's stuff that you can do everyday. not just when you're about to die. to die without regrets. to treasure every relationship and bond you have with the people around you. to take time out to spend precious time with people around you who care for you and who you care for. makes you think abt the truly impt things in life.

thinking about dying. i'd like to die in the arms of the one i love. under a star covered sky. just talking. till i fade off. to lie in the arms of the one who loves me. :)