tsk. see la. irritated again. it's occurring more and more often now. sigh.

i want my room back. NOW. yea kai. i'm trying to be more tolerant. and trying to treasure the times. but it's not happening. he comes home. eats dinner. sleeps. and sleeps till tmr morning. and i haven't spoken to him the whole day. except for him telling me that he wants to sleep. and i have to get out of my room so that he can sleep. wth la. some relationship we're having. my gdness. it's 1020pm la. and it's always such that when i want to sleep early he sleeps late. and vice versa. yea i'm thankful for the times that he's stayed up for me. but there are just times that he's so tired that he just sleeps the night away. mayb he's really tired out at work. but. i dunno. i seriously doubt it. but i shall give him the benefit of the doubt anyway.

why am i the only one that can stand him. why am i the one. it's like. i'm the scapegoat. yea it's not their fault that they can't stand him. but like it's happened pretty much my whole life. and it doesn't matter where. like everytime we go on a holiday. i end up rooming with him. which totally sucks la. i hate it. i totally hate it. so i'm the youngest one around. so i'm here for you to push and shove around? another easy target i see. everyone's the same yea? including you guys. mayb i'm allowing myself to wallow in self-pity. but God. can u just let me? sigh. mayb this is what's called indulging in sin. but i'm so mad God. i'm so pissed off at how unfair this whole thing is.

mayb it's your idea of a blessing in disguise. but it isn't a blessing to ME. great. now i'm self-centered. training my tolerance perhaps. sigh. blogging isn't helping me to cool off. he's leaving tmr. most of me wants to rejoice right now. cuz he'll be gone for a week. but keeping what kai said in mind. yea. i'll treasure him.

someday.