real&fake. who's to say what? mayb it's my pride speaking.

i don't know why. but i hate telling ppl that i'm angry with them. cuz like. then they'll purposely not do the 'thing' so that i won't be angry with them. like this type of faked-niceness is like. KAPUI. ok mayb ppl genuinely change after that and really are nice. but you? i doubt it.

i think i'm really going to have to spend almost all my life (like chris) grappling with the fact that i don't really like you (close to hate but not there yet) and yet i'm told to love you.

don't have dinner with me cuz you were told to have dinner with me. if u didn't want to have dinner with me then forget it. i was all ready to have dinner on my own anyway. and how were you supposed to know? gosh. i think you need to go on dates more often. bah. kapui. it's ok. i can eat by myself. don't need to waste your precious time.

and you want ppl to be indebted to you? KAPUI. dream. wait long long. wishing death and disease upon your family members cuz you want them to be eternally indebted to you?! i'm so speechless. i don't get how anyone could go so low. it's so detestable. words aren't enough.

and sadly. i'm related to you. and the only thing that's keeping me going is the fact that God had a plan for putting you in my life. you'd better thank Him for that.