today was fusionnnn! woooohooo. awesome stuff!

like before that we had cgg. then it was just a fellowship cg. so i was like sian1/2 la. like got a billion things to study. then like aiyer. dun wan leh. but in the end ppl started replying me that they were coming! yay! then so super encouraged then aiyer OK LAH. go la! hahaa..so then we watched mickey blue eyes...super ooper lousy. please dun watch it. then watched honey which was awesome as usual. ok ANYWAY~

then we went for fusionnnnn. and talked abt stepping in poop and vomit and chewing gum. hahaha. sat with irene fok and stephen..which was quite a new experience! yaaa. then like pastor alvin chan was praying abt something i can't remember now...but wowwww. it was damn good.

like cuz a few days back i was damn stressed. like really stressed/freaked out. like i was really stressed until like crying and cannot stop kind! YA! the previous post that day la. dunno wat day. then keith couldn't really help also cuz he talking to me just made me miss him more and made everything like. even more unbearably hard. (note: DO NOT read this as you make things worse ok. u do not. i was just emo-ing. as you should have known. hahahaa. loves.) so then i decided. ok. instead of trying to study. i shall listen to christian music and pray and calm down. and so i did. so then after a few more sobs. i decided to do my qt. (which i haven't done in a while)

and guess watttt. my qt book totally spoke to me in a awesome/creepy/wowwww way! it was talking abt like. how the children of israel saw God's miracle then they believed. and like how we preoccupy ourselves with our circumstances instead of focusing on God. and like how God wants us to believe in order to seeee.

so like wah sai. then i told God. okokokok. i trust you ok. i believe that u'll get me thru 5 years of horrendous med sch. and i'll make it. so like wah. zai zai already. like. high on God again..:)

then a few days later...nv do qt again. so like. wertt. sian right. like wat was that high all about? not even counted lor. then i went for FUSIONNNNN. to which i was like quite pekcek that i crawled off the freaking altar at like. an amazing speed. like i just got to hear/see God a few days ago...and now i'm back at square one?! zzzzz. so at fusionnnn then woohooo! :) :) shiok lor. rededicating life back to God is always. phwoar. good stuff. like. sit at the altar. DUN MOVE. just stay still can. hahahaa.

and also like..i think keith has quite a high high super high place in my life. and sometimes. i just think that i place him above my time with God. like i talk to him then i'm so tired then i dun do qt. or something like that. and i think that night that i was damn emo right. it really just proved and showed me that God's really all i need. i mean yea i love keith a whole lot and i need him too. but. when it comes down to the wire. God really is. the one. the one thing u need to focus on for everything else to fall right into place. yup.

thennnnn. also got the message that like. eh. this God who made the heavens lah...split the red sea la...did all this super zai things. and He loves you leh. YOUUUUUUU. not the other guy down the row. YOUUU. ok fine He loves the other guy too. but He loves youuuu ok. and like He give u all the good stuff ok. not like he eat chicken rice then give u the head. the no meat part. he give u the drumstick okkk. hahahaha...quite a bad analogy. but u get the point! like He's really this awesome awesome God and all He cares about is you! He plans meticulously for you...does everything for you...and like. wow. how in the world could you ever stop praising Him? how? and like. omgosh audrey tham. u just wasted like how much of ur life not sitting at that altar! get ur butt back there now! it should be like stuck there!

yes. this blog post seems like. really weird. i think i'm typing really weird tonight. *shrug* all in all. today's awesome man. totally worth it. muax God.