i realized that i'm not strong as a person. i lack self-esteem. i lack self-confidence. and i lack the courage to say how i really feel. ok. mayb like after some time i'd actually muster enough courage to say things. (and sometimes pleasantly surprised. thx eetse.) ahahhaa. i bet eetse din even know what he did la. but thx anyway.

it's like. aiyer. i'm just mentally weak la. honestly. stuff is just not coming out right. i know how i feel but i just dunno how to put it down in words. or maybe like i dun feel like putting it down in words.

tsk.