it's funny how your mood interprets things ppl say. i know i know. it's quite duh la. but i'm just so shocked at how my mind jumps up and reacts in a way that totally surprises me. esp when i'm irritated. i should try to stop being irritated ya.

i'll nv be more impt than you. it doesn't matter what you say to me. or how you try to make me feel better. at least for now i'm not buying it. i don't need it, you say. and that's a gd thing. i suppose sometimes you're right. yet. i find myself wishing for bad things. and wishing that i'd make more noise. and when i do. you just shrug it off. and tell me 'when the time comes'. i don't get it. maybe next time i will. but i don't care abt next time. i care about now.

bah. i'm such a pathetic lime-light seeker. sucks man.

but then again. every once in a while. everyone needs a little spotlight. no matter how small.

and you too. don't just totally go berserk on me. totally scary. and not to mention pissed by your attitude. how can you do something like that. is everything about revenge? and getting back. and staring. gosh. what in the world do u get outta staring. God knows. and hopefully somewhere in your head u're questioning the same thing.

bah. i'm such a lousy person ya. so easily irritated and pissed. sigh. i should stop.

starless.