sometimes i wonder what exactly i'm gd at. i don't know really. i haven't found something that i'm spectacularly gd at. but don't ppl just go through life like that? jack of all trades yet master of none. but everything takes practise i hear myself say. then again. there must be something out there that i can be gd at the moment i try my hand at it. like. then u'd know that u're just naturally gd at it? yea. gd for nothing. brings a whole new meaning to those 3 words. but even after typing this blog. nothing changes ya? i'd just have to keep on looking. and trying.

tired.

tsk. i dunno why recently i keep thinking and thinking and thinking. like something hits me. then i just continue dwelling on it. mayb it's the fact that i spent most of today home alone. it's been a long time since i've been this home alone. i remember being home alone for so much during pri5-abt sec2. i wonder how i got thru those times. really. facing this empty dark home for the whole day. i remember once i was just so freaked that no one would come home and i'd be this orphan the next day. that i just had to stay up to make sure that my mum came back. paranoid me.

and i think. somewhere inside i'm still scared.