you know how it is sometimes that u just really can't stand yourself? like how incredibly selfish u are..and how stupid..and irritating..and everything! no i'm not in the angry 'i-hate-myself' mood. but i was just thinking about it. (read: i'm calm. and i'm fine.) and you try and try to change yourself..but nothing works (or at least not fast enough) and then. your world crumbles. slips right through your fingers. and no matter how much you cry out..nothing changes. you're still the mean old you. bah. it's all this human nature crap again. but honestly. like no matter how you try to wash urself clean..u're stained forever. unwashable. and no matter how much you try to change yourself to be someone you yourself would love..well. i won't say that it's impossible..but more often than not. you end up failing. and you end up exactly where u started. hating yourself.

heh. isn't it such a coincidence that i came online with the intention of blogging abt how humans are really disgusting. (me included) and i read this whole blog about how much the person hates himself and how he thinks the world hates him. but well. i don't blame you for thinking that way..it is hard to change what the world has convinced you to think. but it's sad isn't it. that this horrible world actually shapes you..and changes the way you think. and essentially who u are.

scary shit.