i'm not going to hide this any longer. sorry if i'm going to be such a pain in the arse. but too bad. i'm really pissed abt this now.

surprisingly. i'm pissed abt the guitar exco. less pissed with some and more pissed with others. i don't wanna be the first person to break this great bond we have between the exco. but. u guys took it too far. in my view, way too far. somehow i feel that there's mostly only me&rosh manning the whole guitar ensemble. of course some of u do play an impt role. but i think u guys should take more responsibility. step up to the position would u.

i've been pissed at this for so long. i guess all the anger's been taken out already. i can't believe i'm still bitter abt 2+2+1. u guys really hurt me deep. i guess it was partially my fault. i remember feeling so awful for not being able to get into choir. and i kept asking God why guitar. and when i met u guys. i praised God for letting me know such awesome people. strong brothers and sisters in Christ who i could share my problems with. and all that just disappeared. nv to reappear. vanished. vamoosh. and suddenly i was left alone. someone who had nothing in common anymore. someone who wasn't 'worth' talking to. friends who used to have endless stories to share. now only shared the deafening silence. sadly. sadly. it'll nv come back. it'll nv go back to how it used to be. no matter how much u try. if u're even trying anymore.

somehow. now i know how kai feels. sadly. i can't disband.