it just dawned upon me this truth. that somehow. no matter what you say. you'll just treat some people differently than other people. like. ok. mayb some ppl can really achieve that. treating everyone the same. but. sadly. i can't.

but it's so weird isn't it. like u'd be more than happy to hear someone share abt his/her day. and yet. u think it's boring when someone else shares abt his/her day. mayb u think this is really mean and all. but. it's what happens to me. and i'm really sorry to all the people out there who i might have given the cold shoulder to. i'm really trying v hard to change this bad habit. please. give me time ok?

had sharing at sam's place abt nepal. well. u know how it is that like. when someone talks abt something. then everyone's like. oh! yea! let's do just that! let's all go to nepal! but like. why can't we ever come up with our own places of harvest. there are SO many harvest fields out there. somehow i think God hasn't placed a burden in my heart for neither thailand nor nepal. i dunno.

my experience during missions was just. i felt that we didn't pray enough. i felt that we were doing things without praying. i dunno. like now thinking back. we could have prayed before we began each medical mission. we could have prayed before we embarked on any journey. i duno. but i'm not saying that mission trips can't be fun. it can be. and it was really really fun. but i felt that it was more fun than doing God's work. but then again. mayb God's trying to tell us that doing His work can be fun too! (although it's not always fun.)

manz. i'm talking in circles.