wah today. terrible terrible day.

i din get a gd sleep. cuz i slept at abt 1230am. and i was like thinking abt stuff just b4
i went to bed. and i assumed that i was thinking abt it all throughout the night while i was sleeping. cuz i woke up feeling extremely tired. like my eyes were just so dry but yet i was wearing specs (thankfully). ya. it was such a horrible experience. like ur mind's so tired from all that thinking. and yet all you can do is think abt it? aiyoh. how wrong is that la. and i dunno how many times i prayed that God would just help me focus on Him and the lecturer..and it would work for a while..then fail completely again. sigh.

so. what came out of all that thinking. aiyoh. headaches of course la! okok. jokes aside.

sadly. sadly. i decided my feelings for u a long time ago. when i first started suspecting stuff. and i believe those were the times when my head was the clearest. as time passes, i'm getting blurrer and blurrer (not that i wasn't extremely blur last time..hahaha..) anyway. from the way i see it from my pov. we. are nv going to work out. unless it's part of God's big plan la. i'm really sorry to say that. but i guess i've thought it through. and i hope not to regret this! cuz i took REALLY long to decide. ahahhaa. try the whole day la. ok mayb that's not v long. but it's long to me ok. yup. so. sorry.

sigh. see la. now i feel so upset. anyway. yaf might be visiting cmc!! how awesome is that! but there's no yservice now. tsk. WHY! oh well. hahahaha. i'm blabbering la. yupyup. yadda yadda. i have no hw today! hooray! and i have pe tmr. *groans*

my Father i adore You more than anything my heart could wish for...i just want You..and Jesus my beloved Saviour everything i am i owe to You..i owe it all to You..