guess it's time to revive the blogger in me.

spent abt half an hr crying yest. sigh. washed my eyes after that. still ended up waking up this morning with dehydrated eyes. started tearing during lecture today. sigh. i'm not supposed to be like this. i'm supposed to be strong. to take everything in and to TRUST God. and keith. dunno where the strong audrey went. sigh. i miss her. i'm kinda tired of being sad and cry-y but somehow i can't help it. but can't help it isn't a reason. maybe this level of sadness is a level that i let myself drop to. i know i'm stronger than this. i think i am. am i?

come on girl. stand up on ur own two feet.

you can do this. you can.

but i can't. sigh.

and i'm damn tired. i even drank coffee this morning. (note: i DUN drink coffee at all. this is probably the 3rd cup of coffee in my whole life. and it's the first time i actually finished the cup. ok. close to finishing.) and i dunno if i should mug or sleep. well. at least the cramps are gone. which is a relief. which brings me back. i think my hormones are making me cry. and making me oober sensitive. sigh.

doesn't change the fact that i miss u.