this post is going to be quite messy. cuz my thoughts are flying around in my head.

mum just nagged me for not studying the whole night. and i guess sometimes i do want her to nag. and sometimes i don't. it's like. i hate the feeling whereby someone nags you (whoever it may be) and u're unhappy that the person nagged you. but yet the person has every reason to nag you. and u end up being pretty frustrated with yourself. sigh.

and i just realized that after typing so many blogs. i really hate a lot of feelings yea? don't u guys ever get bored of reading abt how i hate my life. aiyoh. now i feel like a hamster in a cage with millions of ppl scrutinizing my every move. yea. like millions of ppl will care abt me.

i'm so irritable that it irritates me. and i'm really really really such a killjoy when i'm irritated. like i can't help but snap at ppl when i'm irritated. oh God. i pray for ever-flowing patience. patience with people. esp my dad. who has reached oh-so-many epitomes of this and that.

but this is a dog-eat-dog world. and well. ppl might just step all over you. and take advantage of your patience and 'nice-ness'. but God did say that if you were wronged in anyway, you dun have to stand up for yourself. cuz God will. but knowing humans. will we ever be able to handle being trampled on. and not fighting back.

i feel like studying/sleeping. but my body won't move. help.