major thinking mood. wah got headache even b4 i start typing.

well. a friend of mine has been going thru quite rough rls (relationship) problems. and i've been talking and 'counselling' him almost everyday now. and i think i've run out of things to say. but as you know. all he needs is a listening ear. but well. i guess it starts to get to you that he has really nice memories with that special girl. and although those memories hurt now, he at least has those memories. (although i think he'd rather not having those memories) but. compared to him. i have no really nice memories with that special person. and i guess somehow it still hurts that i still remember the really nice memories he had with some other girl. sigh. enough.

i've become quieter. thinking b4 i speak. phrasing my sentences b4 i say anything. like that day on the bus with yihui and keith. i felt that. i just felt like looking out the window and watching the world pass me by. not saying anything. and so i didn't. not much at least. there's nothing much interesting i can say abt my life. nothing much that i can say abt other's. it's the feeling of being out of place. but mayb i felt out of place because i chose to feel that way. i dunno. isn't everything a choice. feelings included.

i remember last time i used to try to think of something to say when everyone was quiet. but now i dun try anymore. like. if i dun feel like saying anything then i wont. and the fact that everyone is quiet isn't going to change the fact that i dun feel like saying anything. somehow. typing this makes me feel selfish. but i dunno in wat way.

ok. enough. my head's going to explode. thx for being there mich. :)