sigh. back after watching csi. it's like. i was watching it without actually watching it. sigh.

i snapped at my dad today. twice. without him hearing (thankfully). sigh. i dunno what's happening to me. i'm reverting back to my old self. like my thoughts and what i say depends so much on my moods. and i'm getting more and more mood swings. which isn't a bad thing. but it isn't a gd thing either. i realized that since after ycamp, after going on 'high'. going on 'high' is such a mood swing thing. and then sometimes i'll feel so irritable. which is so wrong.

i mean. last time i was just neutral. i won't get high. i dun snap at people. i always think carefully b4 i speak. less spontaneous. more patience. more tolerance. more quiet. more thoughtful. i liked that me. but sigh. sadly i'm not that me anymore. but i miss that me.

Lord, would you help me find me back? make me the me that u want me to be. please.