the wonderful feelings of the great thought just went away. smashed within like 30min? probably less than that.

yea. treat me like trash. while treating others like gems. always happens doesn't it. things mellow down for a bit. but they nv go away. and they never change. (ok. mayb absolute words are bad here. but. it's been long enough.) my sacarsm came from you. big impt you. see. putting it to gd use. yea sure. scream at me. push me around like it's my fault. i wun fight back. i nv did and nv will. no. it's nothing to do with me being weak. or me being unwilling to fight back.

it's pointless. cuz even if i did. u know that u'd win. why do i even bother right.